woke up. bieber was in my head. no i’m not (completely) ashamed of myself. happy hump day all!!!!
A friend of mine said I should write about being pregnant…I have to admit it is a bit difficult to focus on a story like Mystery High while holding my hair back. Pregnancy it is-at least until I can go a day without gagging at some noxious smell. I have to say though, that the following post isn’t representative of every pregnant woman out there…
How can I explain the extent of fear during early stages of pregnancy?
I’m not sure I can in such a way that everyone who isn’t pregnant, will never be pregnant, or thinks they understand what it’s like to be pregnant, will comprehend. But I don’t mind trying.
Fear: be afraid or feel anxious or apprehensive about a possible or probable situation or event; wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
It would be easier if I likened it to something you feared tremendously: the dark, dying, elevators, airplanes, crowds….and suggested you go embrace exactly that which you feared for at least 3 months. But it wouldn’t cut it.
Some pregnant women who I’ve talked to about the fear very simply say: it’s a life, and I don’t want it to die. Me, well, a long time ago I was told that I thought too much. I then took the advice to heart and filled my time with all sorts of activities, jobs, mindless reading (romance novels 😉 ) to make sure my brain was occupied. But now that I’m pregnant, I find my hormones doing a GREAT job of getting my thought process back up and running (when I’m not queasy). So I say that the fear runs way deeper than one life. It’s about two, and how worthy one of them is for life-and I’m not talking about the baby.
Let’s look at creation. Evolution or God, either way says that a woman should have the physical capability of being a mother. It’s necessary for life to continue as we know it. Now, let’s look at another strictly human situation: Ever have a significant other basically tell you you’re not worth it? You’re not worth the effort to resolve pain, to laugh with, to experience life with? Remember how heart breaking that forced revelation was? Most high schoolers who’ve dated probably understand what I’m talking about. There’s always a time, though, leading up to that point of confrontation where your gut churns at every frown from your significant other, and your life lights up in relief with every smile. But that point of being told you’re worthless to another person came, and may have nearly destroyed you.
Now, imagine it was God, or natural selection, telling you you’re not worth it. Your body wasn’t worth reproducing another you. You are not worthy of continuing the human race.
You have 3 months to figure out if that’s what’ll happen. You cringe at every smell, you smile when food goes down. Your heart picks up for every ultra sound. You scrutinize your doctor’s facial reactions and are elated when the news is good. Fine, most don’t sit around and worry all day every day-but anyone can tell you, yes, it’s a worry in the back of every mother’s mind.
A pregnant woman might worry about whether her body is then fit to bear the title ‘woman’. If you can’t conceive, what good are you?
But the grand thing about this fear is that, even if the worst comes to pass, we can try again—and chances are, we will. You see, women aren’t fearless- we’re strong enough to recognize that even the most crippling fear can be worth facing. Sometimes though, we might need a friend to lean on-even if you don’t really understand the fear-I’ve got me some good friends. So, if you know a pregnant woman in the early stages, give her a hug to congratulate her, a shoulder to ease her burden and a hand to hold in case she needs it. Nothing shows you’re a friend better than recognizing the good, bad and ugly and being there regardless of what happens.
It’s a big part of romance-the kiss signifying the main character has found the love of their life. So, Edward and Bella have won (2 years running) best kiss for MTV Movie awards. I say dump on that. There have been way better kisses in tv and movies…
Here are my top 5 that make my heart thump when I watch them:
1. Movie/Show: Roswell
Characters: Michael and Maria
Surprisingly, I couldn’t find a segmented kissing scene on youtube but this was the one with the least offensive music in the background. You want a good scene, check out season 1 episode 9, Heat Wave.
2. Movie/Show: Romeo + Juliet
Characters: Tybalt and Murcutio….kidding. Romeo and Juliet, duh.
Danes and DiCaprio were so young! But boy could they fire up the screen. This scene was their first kiss and I think it really captures what a first kiss is like…
3. Movie/Show: Mr. & Mrs. Smith
They’re bashed, bruised and beyond sexy.
Couldn’t find a video, so here’s a still from the movie:
4. Movie/Show: Atonement
Characters: Robbie and Cecilia
Here’s the beginning of the momentous kiss…after this it gets heated very quickly…
5. It took me a while to decide on this number 5. There are a bunch of honourable mentions down below but I’ve decided that this is one of my personal top kisses
Movie/Show: Gone with the Wind
Characters: Rhett and Scarlett.
Rhett Butler=wow and sometimes you just want to slap that Scarlett silly. When they kiss, and she really kisses him back, it makes a tummy go flippy floppy…the clip I found isn’t one of those. It is one of those moments that makes you say, “Oh no you did’n Ms. O’Hara.”
Characters: Rose and Jack
Characters: Wall-e and Eve
Movie/Show: The Notebook
Characters: I actually don’t know their names because I’ve only seen it once and contrary to most females out there, didn’t like it. The kissing scene in the movie that everyone likes is all nice and rainy and whatnot…but anyone notice how her mouth is draped open right before he dives in? Well anyways, I liked their kiss at the MTV movie awards better:
Movie/Show: P.S. I love you
Characters: Holly and Gerry
Movie/Show: The Office
Characters: Jim and Pam
Any of their kisses. End of season 2 was a good one. ps. this was in strong competition with Gone with the Wind.
Movie/Show: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters: Buffy and Angel
I hunted and was fruitless. No vids of their very passionate kisses. It’s a really old show but here’s a list of favourite kisses of theirs:
Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you’re at home. ~Author Unknown
Okay, so, you know when you’re just plain not feeling it? I’m not feelin the love at the incline, although I’m sure it’d be a great one.
I wrote the start of it, and it’s below, but that’s it. I think I’m going to do a period piece…I was debating using the incline and its history to back it…what with all the gazillionaires who used to (and still do) live in the G.P.A. (greater Pittsburgh area) and the mines…ohh it’d make a lusty tale between say, a man of hard work and some means, and a daughter of the wealthy folk kind. Gives me shivers just thinking about it. Oh April. Not the most fruitful of months.
It was a mental mind race. Which would she choose and why. Which ONE!?
As Andrew stood at the base of Mt. Washington he breathed in deeply to calm his nerves. Images of Serendipity the movie flashed through his head and he cursed out loud in front of a group of older ladies about to climb the stairs to the Duquesne Incline. The explicatives flew and he was almost out of time. They tutted him and his bad upbringing. He was tempted to flick them off, but that wouldn’t bring him any closer to figuring out which incline Cat would choose. Instead of committing a grievous social error that might put one of the women into cardiac arrest, he closed his eyes, tilting his head of usually neatly styled hair back, letting the sun calm him. The flakes of gel were all more visible on the unusually warm April day.
“How did we get here?” he whispers to the sun.
Happy Magic March everyone! It’s the month of St. Patty’s day, longings for a long lost “March Break” and an acute sense of a hump month. Here’s a pic to keep you going (I’ve been travelling like a wild woman and haven’t been able to write the shorts…stay tuned!)
I totally forgot to post this! Well, we’re into April and here’s where I say that the thought really did count…